Frustration and Fireworks

Remember the guy I mentioned in the post about Spain?

Well, yesterday evening a few friends of him(know them as well from Spain) had planned to see the big fireworks in their big city because a local feast would have htis as some kind of a finale.

And because I want to keep in contact with all the new and freshly made connections ( and because he's there too) I said I would come.

In the end I had to get there by train -.-* because N.(the guy) did not want to drive because he wanted to drink some beers there and didn't want to drive a route by night he hasn't driven before..welll... okay!

The problem with him is, I do not know how to handle him!

One time he is almost casanova-like the way he talks (via facebook) and the stuff he says certainly fits into the flirt-category, but then again he treats me like we just met a few minutes ago.

Almost zero interest/attention, every opportunity to flirt or get a little bit closer is not used...

I mean,jesus christ...FIREWORKS!!...it is dark,everyone's fascinated...how hard is it to at least brush coincidently my arm  if he is too shy to put his arm around me or at least sit next to me?! 

Goddammit, this is so frustrating!

How can he tell me totally drunk how beautiful I look ( even though I am flat chested...), flirt with me via facebook, talk about "being intimidated because of my beauty" ( yaddah.. I never take such comments seriously,especially not when not said in reallife...) and simply behave like he is interested in me but then, in real life he is the opposite?!

I kind of got really pissed because of his contradictory behaviour but of course I did not tell the guy when they asked why I looked so grumpy.

Nahh, that would have ruined the good night we all had, there was a friend of them who joined us. Total raggea (?!) guy with rastas and the whole attitue but really cool and a good one to talk to.

So cause N. would not really pay attention to me I  devoted myself rasta-guy and listened to him talking about raggae-music,the whole scene etc.

And somehow I arranged a movie night at his place where we plan to watch Paranormal Activity...

*wants to hide behind the sofa already*

Whenit was almost time to get my train home the guy suggested going back to the Mainbanks(place where fireworks took place) and chill a bit. The moment I said I would have to find some bed to sleep if I did not catch the train, 4 voices raised offering their place... *grin*

Well, at least this time N. was one of them!

We were 5 guys and one girl-me

And I dare say, it is not bad being a minority xD

N. is annoying me with hsi behaviour, how am I supposed to see whether we might fit and get along really well if he keeps on being like this? ._.*

Saturday,the movie night, is a further opportunity and  even though my THERAPIST is really keen on setting me up with N. ( yesterday we talked about love, realtionships and stuff =)), I will not keep on watching N. acting so weirdly.

Treat me as if you really like me or don't and we will just keep friends! 

But do not switch permanently betweeen those two things,!!

Sorry for the guy-rant, I though a bit stuff girls usually gossip about in school is better than no post at all!

EDIT: PS: My stomach is 100% empty. It is growling. But still, I am not sure whether I should eat something. Something veggie I won't b/p, or just another b/p session because of the past events? Maybe I will feel *better* if I just keep this feelings of true hunger, even though it is not my fault N. behaves so frustratingly and according to the other guys' behaviour I am not as unattractive atm as I usually feel ... why do I feel like I deserve these hunger pangs?