Scribblings of my disordered eating (life) ...: Back from Spain!

I am back. Almost insane due to lack of sleep (aprox. 6 hrs within like 2 days and before that 10 days of 7hrs sleeping per day..) but I simply needed to let you know that I am still under the living ones.

There is so much I want to tell you about, and I WILL as soon as I have slept more than 9 hours in a row, am fully awake and able to get the computer for myself longer than 1hour.
Ladies, very soon it will be GOSSIP TIME :D

But for now I will excuse myself, wishing you all the best!

Tmorrow I will see my thereapist again. Am a tiny bit scared he might...hm...difficult to say...just think things are okay,I am not really that much fucked up as it seemed to be..argh do you get what I am trying to express?
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP

Oh yeah... I had planned to upload a few photos of me in a bikini where you can see me vom toes to head. I really was ready to to this risky and challenging step because of you. Turns out the guys who made all the pic is missing his digicam...there was another guy who lost his iPod touch...and there is a guy under suspicion. Those things suck. Things like that should not happen =(

Some sayings and quotes I like...

♦"If you're looking for me, I'm hovering around phrensis, more precisely on the thin line between phrenesis and panic, just round the corner of deadly terror and not very far away from despair and idiocy!"

♦Sooner or later everyone will cause you pain…You just have to figure out which ones are worth it.
♦Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad…
♦Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
♦My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil
♦What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear?
♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin
♦Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering.
♦Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
♦I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way..
♦The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does.
♦Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan

♦"When you lose the battle
You may as well give up the war"

.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....

Behind the mask...

Well,if you saw me you'd think I'm just a girl doing well in this world,maybe a bit pale but that's it- actually I'm anything but "normal".

To my friends,I'm the nice blonde veggie girl,addicted to Great Britain,tough,self-confident,sometimes a bit too mouthy but all in one a young,intelligent girl that knows what life is all about .. if they could look into my head and see what's really going on inside me they'd probably run away terribly terrified...

My life consists of the Me I appear to be on the outside and the real Me,which I can only live out on the internet,in my diary or in my head.

Btw, I'm german so pls forgive any mistakes.

I came here to share my thoughts with like-minded persons as you,because I think this is the only place to in a community where I can let my social mask of normality fall and be truthful, above all else. =)

2 Kommentare:

Peridot (G+P) hat gesagt…: Go to SLEEP silly girl! :p

'Perfect' is a book about Anorexia. I may post what I think of it when I finish :p

NOW GO TO SLEEP!!

Sweet dreams <3; 28. Juli 2010 um 05:49
The Elsewhere Girl hat gesagt…: Hope the therapy session isn't horrendous. I am not looking forward to seeing man nurse in september. UGH.

Hope you sleep lots xx; 30. Juli 2010 um 01:09

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