Could not sleep properly all night,woke up several times and was covered in cold sweat BLEH So maybe you can understand why I did not feel liek going to school .. O.o Texted my father that I was not feeling very well,the cold sweat thing and asked whether I could stay at home. Later he rang me and asked how I was feeling and " yes stay in bed hun if your tummy is not that good"(told him I had diarrhoea since Sun.. which I actually kinda had but only because I had eaten tons of food whole Sat and Sun and I guess that my digesttion was quite over challenged with this... :x ) I even got permission to not eat!" Maybe just some bread crust if you feel liek it dear!" nope. Did not eat a thing until 3.30.PM . Then I bought myself two glasses of pickles and ate them dipped into some sweet mustart.
Not ONCE the thought of b/- ing came int my mind: YAY
Scale said something about 56kilos today.... FUCK.
Is this possible? 3-4kilo more after this bingtastrophe?! Please don't do that to me!!!!
Okay Mina.Calm down. Do not over react. Your thighs are not touching yet so it is not the end of the world. just keep on training yourself into the ANA way of life and everthign will be fine in no time!! =)
But still,the thought of weighing more than 52kilos on Valentine's Day really sucks. If I have to be alone that day..fine . It is sad but bearable.
But FAT and SINGLE?! These are really some bad triggering conditions to binge... T.T
Although....14th is a Sunday so at least the shops are closed!?
There is the small possibility that due to carneval I will be at F.'s with some friends again just as the past few weekends. Mon and Tue is no school due to carneval so maybe.... NO. Being with some buddies,watching films and munching food is not an adequate way to "celebrate" Valentine's Day!!!
DO YOU UNDERSTAND MINA?!
It is really cruel how much I enjoy being with them but at the same time this means tons of food wandering into my mouth... there really should not be such bitterweet things in life -.-
Look.That is pure fat. At least in the series Doctor Who it looks so cute and just goes away if you pop a certain pill x3
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Ahh Valentine's Day, the most binge-tastic day of the year. x_x
Maybe the carnival would lead to eating, but maybe better than staying home and being sad while binging?
Wishing you strength and love. :)
xoxoxo
Valentines day is absurd. I always have to work anyway. >_<
ADIPOSE BABYY!! If fat was that adorable, I think more people might be ok with it. :D
Lol Saturday and Sunday are the days I can work in around university the easiest. It's beter to work them than have to re-negotiate my contracted hours every semester!!
Wow, the shops close on Sunday in Germany? Really?? A guaranteed weekend-day off every week would be freakin' amazing!!
Being with friends and watching films is a good way to spend the 14th. That way you are doing something FUN and not B/Ping by yourself. Lol, think of them as an anti-binge safety net.
How DARE fat be that cute!! D: It is pure EVIL!!!
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