un-be-liev-able
somehow it makes me sad. somehow it scares me to what binging can bring you. and somehow I wonder whether purging came never to their mind...
I so hope this reverse thinspo grossed me out enough to push MIA away from me and keep her away.... I have been fighting the urge to binge since around 6 PM. Right after dinner I have been constantly fighting with myself, ate 2 further apples,drank 1.5litres of ice tea(30cals) and took a few sipps of veggie bouillon... am going to bed now cause it is almost half past 12 AM and although my first 4 lessons of school were cancelled it is now getting late xP
looks like I won a small battle. Estimated that I had around 700 cals today. Scale said 54.4kilos this morning. Let us just pray that I get rewarded by an much lower number when I wake up and go to the bathroom - PLEASE
Additionally,sorry loves will be rather rare on here this week due to the monthly computer free week ._.
Here some thinspo for u for being to kind to follow my blog =9
♦"If you're looking for me, I'm hovering around phrensis, more precisely on the thin line between phrenesis and panic, just round the corner of deadly terror and not very far away from despair and idiocy!"
♦Sooner or later everyone will cause you pain…You just have to figure out which ones are worth it. ♦Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad… ♦Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me… ♦My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil ♦What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear? ♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin ♦Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering. ♦Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain! ♦I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way.. ♦The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does. ♦Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan
♦"When you lose the battle You may as well give up the war"
.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....
When I hate...
When I hate this stretch of skin this bulge of thigh this clinging fat these beady eyes
When I hate this stomach flab this sagging chest this chunky butt these too small breasts
When I lose my sense of self my dignity my pride in all that makes up me
When I lose this ugly face this state of mind my worst disgrace then I'll be fine. Then I'll be fine. You'll see, I'm fine. ~Ant (Morgan S.)~
Measures: thigh 49/50cm arm - 24cm waist - 64cm hip - 88cm
Behind the mask...
Well,if you saw me you'd think I'm just a girl doing well in this world,maybe a bit pale but that's it- actually I'm anything but "normal".
To my friends,I'm the nice blonde veggie girl,addicted to Great Britain,tough,self-confident,sometimes a bit too mouthy but all in one a young,intelligent girl that knows what life is all about .. if they could look into my head and see what's really going on inside me they'd probably run away terribly terrified...
My life consists of the Me I appear to be on the outside and the real Me,which I can only live out on the internet,in my diary or in my head.
Btw, I'm german so pls forgive any mistakes.
I came here to share my thoughts with like-minded persons as you,because I think this is the only place to in a community where I can let my social mask of normality fall and be truthful, above all else. =)
1 Kommentar:
Oh god watching her eat made me nauseous. It looks painful for her to move around and walk.
ICK
Thanks for the reverse thinpo!
xoxo zen
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