Waiting

Wednesday was my appointment with my therapist. But I could not tell him. It was too difficult,did not know how to start. How to put it all in words....
But I had found something online, a really long text of a psycholigist. The stuff she wrote about the psyche of Bilimics,basically every psychological aspect about bulimia was so well expressed!
I could find myself like almost 100% in it. That is why I decided to print it.
I thought that it would be the best way to make him understand. Because that woman put into words what I can not.

I am really nervous about next Wednesday....what will happen? How will his reaction be?

At least there is one good thing about it: last MIA session was this Monday. Past few days have been *pretty good* meaning 600-750 cals a day. Basically eaten within 6-10 PM. I eat dinner and then a kilo package of carrots with some realyl low cal salat sauce and one or two cans of green beans.
I am okay with it =)

But still, I agreed with myself that tonight is MIA night-and I really mean the night part of tonight,so no one of my family will hear or see anything. And the bag will be thrown away before sun rises. There will be no evidence left at all.

Oh and by the way about 35 minutes left until the match Germany: Serbia will start =D Cross your fingers for Germany ! :P

lots of love and thanks for you support I appreaciate any kind of advice =)
♥♥♥Mina