Today's my lucky day..?

Sonntag, 11. Juli 2010
Erm...
I a bit suspicious, because things have been too good for me today.
It all started not so nicely:
My patchworkfamily wanted to go to the big fleamarket and I had set the alarm clock  to 9.30 ,so I could be ready to get their by bike until 10.10 AM.
Hm...I had SET the alarm clock but not ACTIVATED it.
End of the story: I wake up, feel like it is later than it should be.
Check the clock.
12.00 AM
shiiiiiiiiit
No fleamarket for Mina,today.
Idiot much?
 
Well, it was a pity but not the end of the world.
Instead I delivered the tv magazines,my old sideline job I am planning to quit soon since I have now the bkery job.
After having done this and also returned some DVDs I had borrowed from our awesome local library I went back to my room and finished a book I had also borrowed there. It is written by a psychologist and is about eating disorders and what really are the underlying problems.
I started readin it last week,decided to borrow it and maybe give it to C. to make her udnerstand me better.
Now that I have finished reading it I will give it to herr pretty soon,maybe right before I go to Spain on Thursday.
That gives her 12 solid days to read 215 pages and hopefully understand me better.
I kind of expect her to treat me *better* after this book.
Stop pressuring,cornering me.
I want the book to erase every thought of her about talks or actions she might have done in the future if she had not read the book.

But I am digressing... the actual reason I decided to post today s....
I WON!
I pwned each and every opponent in MONOPOLY!
O pwned my half sister,my brother ,my sister and my sister's friend!
bwahahahahaa
 I NEVER win.
I am always bad at games like that, I do not even really like Monopoly.
But this time I W-O-N
I thought I would be like 100% on the loser side, because I only owned the electricity and water thingy and the lilac 3streets.
But I kept on buying houses and then hotels on the lilac streets and I somehow got so lucky that all my opponents often visited my electiricity/water things 
(pay: hit it and multiply the number the dice says by 200 teehee)
and the lilac streets ...:D
Firstly my half sister gave up cause she was broke, then my sister but before she did, she payed me with half of all her streets.
By then I owned like half of all the streets available.
Then my brother had to give up (he was the one who owned the most expensive streets but almost no one ever hit them hihi).
End of the game was that I owned 80% of all the things you can buy. 
My sister's friend had all 4 stations but that was it.
I was swimming in money and it was already pretty clear I would win after my half siter had to give up

And now I luckily found a way to watch EUReKA and finally Sex and the City 2 online!

*biggest grin for a long time seen on my face*

but then again it all makes me really suspicious.
Of course it is ONLY winning Monopoly and being lucky to find the series finally online...
but still it worries me...like it is a signal for uncomfortably,mean things lying ahead, waiting to attack me deviously from behind...
 
*sigh*
Careful,honey..!

PS.: Am still in the 50,x area :D




4 Kommentare:

Anonym hat gesagt…

It makes me happy to hear that you're lucky, really. Now everyone can see that we can be satisfied and happy again if we reach our ultimate goals.
Maybe the monopoly thing means something ;)
I'd love to hear from you!
Stay strong, keep your weight up, always remember that it's making you happy.
Merely

Peridot (G+P) hat gesagt…

OMG YAY!!! I suck at monopoly too. I always try to go for the green, red and yellow properties. They are soooo lucrative!!

I hope C pulls her head out from up her ass and LISTENS to what you are trying to tell her with the book. Namely: Everything she is trying to do is WRONG!!!!!!!!!!

*Huggles* Love you pretty Mina!

xEllex hat gesagt…

Hey, the book idea is a good idea I think. I find it hard to talk about my ED so I gave my parents a copy of an ED book and underlined in it everything I did or felt. I would never have been able to say those things openly.

Oh Minaralou...it saddens me that you feel that way about your life. I admit I'm the same about getting properly older-I care little about the effects of smoking-I don't care if I die relatively young, but in my 20s!?? I often think I want to die but the idea of going without every having properly lived my life, never having experienced the carefree young life that others do...it saddens me. If that really is how you feel about your life atm I suggest whatever it is you're doing now, get out as soon as you can! Travel, move to another country, start over, whatever! There's a whole world out there and you must be able to find somewhere in it.

Oh and in the loft is better than the freezer. The freezer is in the kitchen and I will just defrost stuff in the microwave hence why I'm nervous about all the things already in it! xx

Peridot (G+P) hat gesagt…

Have an award, a travelling gife, so to speak <3

Some sayings and quotes I like...


"If you're looking for me, I'm hovering around phrensis, more precisely on the thin line between phrenesis and panic, just round the corner of deadly terror and not very far away from despair and idiocy!"
♦Sooner or later everyone will cause you pain…You just have to figure out which ones are worth it.
Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad…
Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil
What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear?
♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin
Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering.
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way..

The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does.
Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan

"When you lose the battle
You may as well give up the war"


.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....

When I hate...

When I hate
this stretch of skin
this bulge of thigh
this clinging fat
these beady eyes

When I hate
this stomach flab
this sagging chest
this chunky butt
these too small breasts

When I lose
my sense of self
my dignity
my pride in all
that makes up me

When I lose
this ugly face
this state of mind
my worst disgrace
then I'll be fine.
Then I'll be fine.
You'll see, I'm fine.
~Ant (Morgan S.)~