On Sunday I visited with my family our local Christmas market. It was soo crowed and I was freezing like hell-when we finally headed back home I could not almost feel me fett anymore nor my fingertips :S And when I sat in front of the tv later, the coldness would not go away,so I made myself a hot water bag :)
Then, yesterday, I was with my father in the kitchen and while he was preparing dinner we were chit chatting a bit and I mentioned how f*** cold it had in the past days suddenly become and he was like " Well, you don't seem to have much fat on your body left,hu?" *awkuard moment of silence* "Well..uhm.. you see... I just have a really low blood pressure just as C. (his life partner),you know" Yeah..looks like it "
Must not rise any suspicion.....all along I was wondering why nobody has recognised anything in spite of my weight loss. Especially no one in school/my friends etc. But then yesterday a friend of mine suddenly was like "Man, you seem have got toally skinny legs!" -such words from a guy.
*mental leap*
ABout 10 minutes before dinner I went out to empty my dustbin and fell over the stone that is right next to the dustbin. Result: Both my hands are scratched and my right knee looks rather unpretty. *ugh*
My father's only comment: "jeeez, U really have some gross motor skills!"
3days left until winte rholidays*yay* Friday I will go to school for only one damn english lessong-we ar enot going to do any specific anyway-..what a waste of time!
What are your sylvester plans this year? Are you going to celebrate with your friends or with your family? Any special traditions etc.? I am really curious about it!=)
Greetings,
Minaralou
PS: I don't know what is worng with me! It is not even 4pm and I have already consumed like 300-400 calories-this is an embarassingly huge amoutn for me,cause it is not evne dinenr time! And dinner will be way more than 300cals so I fear that I will have to purge it....and since I#ll have to throw up anyway I might as well binge a bit,huh? Gosh I am such a weird wibbly wobbly something :(
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Some sayings and quotes I like...
♦Sooner or later everyone will cause you pain…You just have to figure out which ones are worth it.
♦Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad…
♦Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
♦My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil
♦What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear?
♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin
♦Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering.
♦Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
♦I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way..
♦The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does.
♦Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan
♦"When you lose the battle
You may as well give up the war"
.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....
♦Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad…
♦Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
♦My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil
♦What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear?
♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin
♦Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering.
♦Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
♦I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way..
♦The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does.
♦Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan
♦"When you lose the battle
You may as well give up the war"
.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....
When I hate...
When I hate
this stretch of skin
this bulge of thigh
this clinging fat
these beady eyes
When I hate
this stomach flab
this sagging chest
this chunky butt
these too small breasts
When I lose
my sense of self
my dignity
my pride in all
that makes up me
When I lose
this ugly face
this state of mind
my worst disgrace
then I'll be fine.
Then I'll be fine.
You'll see, I'm fine.
~Ant (Morgan S.)~
this stretch of skin
this bulge of thigh
this clinging fat
these beady eyes
When I hate
this stomach flab
this sagging chest
this chunky butt
these too small breasts
When I lose
my sense of self
my dignity
my pride in all
that makes up me
When I lose
this ugly face
this state of mind
my worst disgrace
then I'll be fine.
Then I'll be fine.
You'll see, I'm fine.
~Ant (Morgan S.)~
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