Ohhhhh...look at that! IT'S CHRISTMAS!!

Donnerstag, 24. Dezember 2009
Whoops, I only just noticed: It is after midnight,menaing it is the 24th of December meaning it is CHRISTMAS
yaaaaaaaaay..... ?!
I don't know...somehow I feel rather empty..no Christmas feeling no "today is a special day" thoughts...there won't be anything extraodinary for dinner for me,I pretty much know what kind of presents I'll get and you know... the whole day seems to flow away just like every other winter holidays day...
However, I really hope you all are going to enjoy Christmas+boxing day and have a jolly good time =)

Btw, a few minutes ago I looked in the mirror and thought that my tighs look incredibly fat...maybe it is because I binged again today...on cookies and bread and...chocolate aaaaand whole grain noodles plus some nuts -.- ._.
Again I have this feeling that I am too stupid to purger proberly..I have this nasty little feeling that there are still some noodles in my stomach left....Additionally, these sodden laxies don't seem to have worked...they should have started *workin* at half past eight...look what time it is....still nothing happened.
Maybe there really is a God or something that shows me what a horrible person I am that deserves to be fat and ugly and boring und usuccessful and empty.

blah....gotta stop spoiling the merry Christmas mood most of you probably have
I AM SORRY
=(

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Some sayings and quotes I like...


"If you're looking for me, I'm hovering around phrensis, more precisely on the thin line between phrenesis and panic, just round the corner of deadly terror and not very far away from despair and idiocy!"
♦Sooner or later everyone will cause you pain…You just have to figure out which ones are worth it.
Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad…
Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil
What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear?
♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin
Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering.
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way..

The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does.
Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan

"When you lose the battle
You may as well give up the war"


.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....

When I hate...

When I hate
this stretch of skin
this bulge of thigh
this clinging fat
these beady eyes

When I hate
this stomach flab
this sagging chest
this chunky butt
these too small breasts

When I lose
my sense of self
my dignity
my pride in all
that makes up me

When I lose
this ugly face
this state of mind
my worst disgrace
then I'll be fine.
Then I'll be fine.
You'll see, I'm fine.
~Ant (Morgan S.)~