Scribblings of my disordered eating (life) ...: I'm not dead

..I have just been too busy& ashamed puking my guts out...

Additionally I was extremely angry with my brother and utterly sad cause because of him I have lost

ALL MY PICTURES

Every single photo I had is gone... tons of thinspo,pics for msn,pics of stuff I am a fan of...simply every bloody thing that meant something to me-.- WIndows7 was about to be *out of date* and had to get new installed with the proper final version or something...and my ruddy goddamn brother fucked the saving thing up.... "forgot" to save some of my stuff like my like 7gigabyetes of all kinds of pics aaaand my entire Sims 2 stuff+all expansion packs+saved houses families etc.

It bloody hurt.

It still does.

Hate him for being such a retard,for thinking he could do it by himself instead of letting our stepbrother do it who is an ace in computer stuff...

the hate might fate but the anger will stay and if some day there might be a chance to take revenge...well beware lil brother BEWARE

Damnit,it is gonna such suhc a long time to get only the thinspos back...then all the pics of Doctor Who,Harry Potter,Bella&Edward(the books) stuff.... and let us not forget that stuff like pics on whose I am with some friends etc are gone forever and will not return.

Jesus, like suxx

Some sayings and quotes I like...

♦"If you're looking for me, I'm hovering around phrensis, more precisely on the thin line between phrenesis and panic, just round the corner of deadly terror and not very far away from despair and idiocy!"

♦Sooner or later everyone will cause you pain…You just have to figure out which ones are worth it.
♦Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad…
♦Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
♦My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil
♦What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear?
♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin
♦Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering.
♦Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
♦I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way..
♦The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does.
♦Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan

♦"When you lose the battle
You may as well give up the war"

.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....

Behind the mask...

Well,if you saw me you'd think I'm just a girl doing well in this world,maybe a bit pale but that's it- actually I'm anything but "normal".

To my friends,I'm the nice blonde veggie girl,addicted to Great Britain,tough,self-confident,sometimes a bit too mouthy but all in one a young,intelligent girl that knows what life is all about .. if they could look into my head and see what's really going on inside me they'd probably run away terribly terrified...

My life consists of the Me I appear to be on the outside and the real Me,which I can only live out on the internet,in my diary or in my head.

Btw, I'm german so pls forgive any mistakes.

I came here to share my thoughts with like-minded persons as you,because I think this is the only place to in a community where I can let my social mask of normality fall and be truthful, above all else. =)

2 Kommentare:

zen hat gesagt…: OMG that sucks!! On several occasions I had computer crashes that cause total loss of data. Now I keep everything stored on an external drive.
Still it's absolutely impossible to recover everything. Ya just have to start over.
So so so sorry!!

xoxo zen; 4. März 2010 um 22:40
Peridot (G+P) hat gesagt…: Oh shiiiiiit! *HUGS*

You have given me timely warning to back up all my pics and ITunes music. God, I wish it hadn't happened to you Mina!!

<3; 5. März 2010 um 03:09

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