Dragonflies

Pheeeeew

Ate dinner.

Already feared rice would be on the plate.

Turns out family is having chicken fricasse.

I'm not.

On my plate: mixed veggies with a few tiny pieces of potatoes.

Phhhhew²

Something in my mind told me that 300cals obviously aren't enough.

Another voice whispers that I should leave it with that after the disastrous weekend.

First voice throws in the argument that my metabolism is already screwed up and the big aim is to lose as much as possible until Spain Yes but a big No for further damage on my metabolism.

Now I am very full, cause I ate a plate full of my beloved green beans and a package of carrots with salad sauce.

Therefore a total of 700-800calories.

I just watched the two recent episodes of the third season of Supersize vs. Superskinyn on youtube.

I worship this show

!!!

But once again it makes me realize how thin the Superskinnies are although they are eating around 1200-1600 cals a day.

Friggin tremendous amount,huh?

But obviously it is possible. If I (probably I could also say "we"?) had not already screwed up our metab I could aslo lose eating a bit over 1000cals a day.

But there is the difference.

These Superskinnies are not eating disordered. 

Well,maybe in a tiny sort of way but definitely not the Mia/Ana/Ednos way.

Anyway, end of the story is that it made me realize that I will probably not lose faster by eating 500cals instead of around 800cals. And if, the difference would be barely significant I guess. 

Under 1000cals is seen as "starvation diet"

And if I want to include a lot of exercising in my daily life it surely is easier to do this with 800 cals instead of 500 or lower.

Which brings me to the next point:

It's competition time!!! :D

Yummy Secrets created it and if you want to join just visit her blog and follow the instructions.

Somehow I am really happy about this.

I am so looking forward to it, being a part of something and suddenly there is so much more confidence in me that I will actually be thin and feel not ashamed when being on the beach in Spain 

and down to 50 kilos until my 18th birthday is possible.

YES

Yes

yes

This is definitely my ultimate and favourite Bikini Thinspo of this Summer!

Btw, did I mention I am going to buy laxies within the next week in order to get an accurate number from the scale when weighing in for the competition?

Lots of love,

Mina

PS: Huh, sudden kinda happy feeling. Wonder when depression kicks in again. Mood swings suck.