...and these are my results...
uhm Borderline?! Dependent? Noooot really?!?? At least there is no way I am dependent rather the opposite!... ._.
The last time I ate was yesterday night 9PM-an apple. I got through school with half a litre of diet coke but stupid stomach won't stop growling like a hungry dog -.- Initially, I had thought of b/p tonight... but since I am already broke and get *fresh* money around Wednesday-ish or so I am contemplating or actually trying to persuade myself to go the Ana-ish way. Nothing until dinner(6PM) and then a packed of carrots with low cal salad sauce and maybe green beans.... hmm....would be cheaper and I would have enough money left for the next days....hm..... I know what the right answer is but my habit of b/p ing on "oatmeal with water with sugar with cocoa powder" and spooning nougat creme out of its jar/eat it on bread plus eating a whole pack(500g) of noodles with ketchup,cottage cheese and butter on it...is just so...nice...kind of.
Meh
.
okay.
breeeeeeeeeeeath
I will not b/p today!
I will eat a nice big amount of named veggies and be happy cause I fill myself up with tons of Vit A and refused Mia's wish to visit me again.
I will!
Very glad your getting those veggies in. I was thinking of having a juice(ish) dinner... my tummy is annoying the heck outta me. Got some acai stuff that I can mix with water and make a drink with. Hope it doesn't taste like crap. xoxo zen
♦"If you're looking for me, I'm hovering around phrensis, more precisely on the thin line between phrenesis and panic, just round the corner of deadly terror and not very far away from despair and idiocy!"
♦Sooner or later everyone will cause you pain…You just have to figure out which ones are worth it. ♦Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad… ♦Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me… ♦My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil ♦What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear? ♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin ♦Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering. ♦Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain! ♦I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way.. ♦The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does. ♦Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan
♦"When you lose the battle You may as well give up the war"
.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....
When I hate...
When I hate this stretch of skin this bulge of thigh this clinging fat these beady eyes
When I hate this stomach flab this sagging chest this chunky butt these too small breasts
When I lose my sense of self my dignity my pride in all that makes up me
When I lose this ugly face this state of mind my worst disgrace then I'll be fine. Then I'll be fine. You'll see, I'm fine. ~Ant (Morgan S.)~
Measures: thigh 49/50cm arm - 24cm waist - 64cm hip - 88cm
Behind the mask...
Well,if you saw me you'd think I'm just a girl doing well in this world,maybe a bit pale but that's it- actually I'm anything but "normal".
To my friends,I'm the nice blonde veggie girl,addicted to Great Britain,tough,self-confident,sometimes a bit too mouthy but all in one a young,intelligent girl that knows what life is all about .. if they could look into my head and see what's really going on inside me they'd probably run away terribly terrified...
My life consists of the Me I appear to be on the outside and the real Me,which I can only live out on the internet,in my diary or in my head.
Btw, I'm german so pls forgive any mistakes.
I came here to share my thoughts with like-minded persons as you,because I think this is the only place to in a community where I can let my social mask of normality fall and be truthful, above all else. =)
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Very glad your getting those veggies in. I was thinking of having a juice(ish) dinner... my tummy is annoying the heck outta me. Got some acai stuff that I can mix with water and make a drink with. Hope it doesn't taste like crap.
xoxo zen
Yay! Drive Mia away with yummy veggies! I've has over 500% of my RDI of VitC. Yay broccoli!!
OMG I WANT CANDY NOW!!1!
I'll be good, since you are too :p
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