Neglection

Sorry I am neglecting you so baldy :(
I feel really bad about not posting about anything interesting or how successful I am in shedding all the layers of fat...
So her is a short update:

Since Monday I have been cycling at least one hour every day

and eaten always under 800 cals.

Today I was THIS CLOSE to have a long self-destructive MIA session.

But then I changed my mind,

I was actually already in the supermarket when,having just passed the veggie isle, I simply changed my mind 

"No Mina, let's NOT have a pinge purging session today! It is only around 1 1/2 hours until you meet the psychotherpist, meaning you would have got to hurry. And you are already maltreating your poor teeth by drinking up to 3litres of asparteme filled coke or orange limo a day. Look at those carrots, don't they look yummy? Sooo healthy and yesterday you ate them with low cal ketchup...just imagine: eating really relaxed,no time pressure....and look at those really low cal salad dressing! 9cals per 50ml! That is just amazing ! Let's be healthy,like the passed days and not b/p!"

And I did it.

And tomorrow is supposed to go like that:

School->short break at home to eat anything low cal but still refreshening in order to be ready for...

->cycling tour with some of my male friends who is kinda addicted to cycling(the whole family is) and another buddy who already accompanied me on Tuesday on my 1hr ride.

The feeling of the oncoming 1.5 hrs+ ride is so.good.

I know it is gonna be hard and I am gonna sweat like hell but the thougt of the *tons* of cals that are going to be burned and the awesome work out it is for my leg muscles...

Whooooooooooope

:D:D

Aaaaand I handed in my application for a small sideline job in teh mini bakery store that is in our local supermarket. I am so so soso hoping I will get it. Perfect would be this: Working Sat and Sun alway around 3-5 hrs. And if they pay more than 5€ per hour EVERYTHING IS FINE.

Meaning: I will be joining  the gym only 5minutes away f my home withing no time,as the payment is no problem anymore. This means, amazing opportunities to train my body and free it from the layers of fat.

WHAM

This almost sounds way too good ot be true.

Please realitly, do not shatter this nicely build bubble but harden it and make it come true.

I need this job and I need to join the gym.

How are you shaping up for summer?

Any tips to look good in a bikini if you have tiny breasts and big shoulders thax to bloody bone structure?

Tips to get a bit more exercise addicted?

Bytheway; I have cut out fruits from my diet.But this is just for the moment for I know that as soon as strawberries are ready to get harvested I am gonna fall for them as every year.But I tihnk 32 cals/100g is quite tolerable,huh?

But I am definitely trying to cut seriously back on my apple consumption.

Goals for spring and summer:

1)Get a proper sideline job to

2) join the gym

3) work out every day

4)lock MIA up in my closet and only use her in case of emergency but not planned

5)do not feel ashamed and ugly when being in Spain on the beach

6) have a hot flirt

7)down to 50 kilos before turning 18

Just a short last question? What do you think about this: When I bought the carrots,the salad dressing and my beloved green beans I tend to live off at the moment ,there was this boy at the counter who works there sindce around...March. As I go to the supermarket at least once each day and always buy diet coke,orange limo light,green beans,carrots and all that kind of stuff I have seen him there quite often(he mostly is one of the cashiers) . There have already been a few short remarks when I bought my stuff like " Are you sure you can handle that?"( Me loaded with two big bottles and three big cans..). 

Today he asked, "Wow, do you always eat that healthyly?"  

Cleary he was never cashier when I entered the supermarket and left with a big bag filled with packs of ice,cookies,chocolate,cake and all that other MIA stuff.

AND I AM SO GLAD OF IT!

..'cause I answered,smiling:" Sure!You have gotta care for you body,right? I want to get old,you know?";)

"Sure, but always so healthy? ;)

"Yup, It's yummy and one must pay attention to getting all the vitmaines and stuff as I do not consume any animal substances!"

And here comes the evidence that there might be some kind of interest: he aske dhow old I was.

hm....hm....Imagine you and your boyfriend at a party or something and someone goes"Oh so and how did you meat then?"- "Uhm... She was buying carrots and I was the cashier and some day I just asked her out"
WTF?! Weird image in my head.
And I am not even sure if it is just the thrill of a could-be-flirt and the fact that a male subject looking not that bad show some interest in me..? Anyway, maybe the whole thing is over before it even had a chance to start as he is 100% 18 or 19 and might be scared to ask out a 17 year old. Maybe I should have said  "ALmost 18" or sometihng like that instead of 17.
4months to go.
Phhhhh, no matter how things are going to develop but at least I have another reason to lock up MIA: If cashier boy sees me with my b&p shoppings on the counter I do not want to have to be in need of an embarassing excuse like "uhm..you know.. I am buying stuff for my siblings!"