New Lowest Weight!

Hello dears,

as it is computer-free-week again I have only time for a quickt short post to keep you updated =)

This morning I reached a new LW:

51,4 kilograms!

*whoop whoop*

A small goal I had set myself was to be in the 51's today 

("Abisaufen" , a big event celebrated every year due to end of uhm gotta correct myself written! exams,which means only oral  exams/tests are left for the Abiturienten( the ones who graduate))

And though I had completely pushed away the thpught to actually achieve it.. I did! *teehee*

This succes is only a bit softened due to the fact that my thighs are 51cm, which they also were  when I was52,0kg in winter so probably some of the dropped weight is only water...which is rather likely cause I have been hardcore MIA this week

...

I was only in school for one lesson, as when holidays start we only have 3 but my first two were cancelled. We got back our english exams and the result was horrible! It is a mjor course so one would expect us to be quite good,huh?

WRONG

the average was like 7,4 points ( scale goes from 0-15 points 15 equals A+ 10 B- etc) which is so.bad.

You can not imagine how my heart sunk when  I heard it 

" Holy fuck if I srewed english  I will get really plastered to drink away the shame !"

open my testbook..... 13points-best exam in course

PHEW
 anything below 13 seems to be unacceptable to me if it comes to english (13 is a A-)

english+me= perfectionist ;)

Wednesday as you might know I had my appointment with a shrink. He seems to be okay. Which means I am gonna give him a chance and go to him a few times more and then decide whether it shall be him or not :)

Right now I am munching happily on mushrooms,champignons I love you!, and drink diet coke which means preparing myself for the celebrate-ABITUR-by-getting.horribly-plastered!

Wow, about 80cals in my system plus coffeine boost and some further water with vitamines( dropped supplements in it lika all vit. and magnesia) this really should help a tiny bit?! 

xD

Who am I kidding, no 80 cla sis not a basis in which one should drink but ..WHATEVER

this solely means that I need less alcohol menaing LESS CALORIES to get drunk ...which appparently is not too bad. I merely havce to be careful to stop drinking before it's getting really unpleasant ;)

My recent thoughts this week:

Please fate or whatever there might be....

special boy MUST  spend time with me today, we MUST get closer,flirt ,kiss whatever... WANT HIM WANT HIM WANT HIM

gosh,kinda pathectic... even more if you take into consideration that atm I am really not ready for relationship and stuff enough problems with myself you know yadda yadda ;)

But...for heaven's sake some snuggling would be MORE THAN NICE THOUGH!

Anyone sympathetic please?

I think I can manage to come online tonight again to give some report about the past hrs!

;)

so stay tuuuuned  boys and girls if you are interested in mina's rollercoaster of life and emotions!

Ps: Cross all your nice fingers that today the weather will not screw the whole thing! NO RAIN, nice WARM tempeature!!!