Apology

To my commenters =( Failed the task to not pruge the whole week yesterday...I KNOW that if I had read your commetns yesterday I would not have purged and withstand temptation and stress( some conflict with my father though it was really mini but still stressed me out, I had only 300cals for the day and went like"Fuck it jsut do it" bad bad Mina). But still, I'm contemplating to try a new thing: 50/50 Sunday I was Ana,Monday I have been MIA so today I will be ANA again(for sure!!!). Wednesday? We'll see, I would be glad if I can stay ANA. That would disturb the 50/50 pattern but in a good way so who cares ?:)

Yesterday I bunred 300cals by doing my sideline job.

(when my father came home to bring some food for dinner before he headed back to work I was just standing in the doorway and had just finished the sj and suddenly he looked at me and said: " Well..you really have lost quite some weight,haven't you? Are u heading for a special goal or is this rather because of your diet(vegan)?"
 My answer after a tiny pause" Uhm,yes I have lost a bit since I had become a bit heavier in fall 08 because I used to be so super lazy and ate realy unhealthy..but with all the cyling due to my sideline job and my healthy eating habits it changed.Look how muscular my thighs have become!"   His only comment,looking really sweet:" Just please watch over yourself oaky?"
......somehow this encounterment makes me said. ..Everything is fine Daddy,don't worry! I can care for myself don't worry everythign will be fine! I won't starve myself like Marya Hornbacher, I will be finde when I have reached 50 kilos,I don't want to look like an escapee from Auschwitz weighing only 40 kilos.. don't worry I am okay..)

..and I skipped school. Yup I know it is a bad thing but this term is like 90% over, every grades are already noted down in the school's computers and today I found out that the 8 lessons I would have had were all canceled but two...so BLAH :P

Tomorrow will be the second part of the 11th grade's alcohol preventions thingy. The first part a few months ago was rather cool:  We  were supposed to put on a special kind of glasses and with them on your sight was just like you were on LSD,ecstasy etc and another just as if u were wayyy too bloody drunk xD And then u were supposed to catch a ball...open a door with your keys and walk along a straight line...and OH YES drive with a bobby car around some things.
IT WAS SOOO MUCH FUN! And I managed to do everything pretty well even with the glasses on apart from the "walk straight on the line " thing..was like 10cm next to the lina but convinced I was walking straightly *rofl*
 So Wednesday, will be more theory. Policemen explaining to us what happens if u get caught driving drunk,what happens in an accident etetc...we'll see !

There are a lot of preventions like this at our school-which I think is a really good thing =)
Prevention for HIV, alcohol,drugs,smoking...this is not normal for every school so we are really lucky ^.^

Tonight I am going to watch Happy Go Lucky with C. , that is why I am so positive about being 100% ANA :D
 Another good message: Saturday,open day, my german course will play The Guides for all the visitors that come to our school(parents with their children of course) so there wil be NO SCHOOL for me and I can sleep a bit longer and then just show the visitors our school and stuff *teehee*
After that I'll be at some other good friend's with my 2nd circle of friends and have a jolly good tiem from like half past five until 1 Am. I think I will do my sideline job and Saturday instead of Friday so I can eat some potatoes his mother is going to makes without any problems =)

Geeeez,these school computers really suck-they are soooooooooooooooo slow xC
But still I am gonna try to read at least some of your posting !

xoxo
Minaralou


PS: Jayne, would you be bothered if I too would start to think of such a "to do list before I die" and post it some day?