First of all, I want to thank you all who commented so very sweet when I posted some pictures of me =)
Lyndee: Thx for your support and offer to help,I'll gladly take any advice,tips&tricks =)
First school day was kinda stressful and it really bothers me that there are 11weeks left until easter holidays...after one day without MIA it came back :S But today there won't be any way MIA creeps up my back 'cause I'm in school until5pm and will be at home at about half past or something. Then it is dinner time,afterwards I clean the kitchen and a few minutes later C: and I head off to the cinema to watch FAME. Anyone heard of that musical? It is a remake I guess of the verrrrry old musical but since our school once tried to perfom it(but failed horribly due du planning problems etc) and I like films with musical elements I hope C. and I will enjoy it ^.^ (Update...failed in the not purging thing :C)
My french and german exams went well: 11 and 10 points out of 15 =)
On Saturday(maybe) I will at at this friend of mine's hosue again to watch some films and I already made sure that there wil be enough *rabbit food* for me so this should become a good night. I really wanna try hard to slowly overpower MIA so to not over react or something I have been hiding from the scale...who knows..maybe I won't even really gain ?
Phhhhht...... life seems pretty pointless atm but maybe it is just the about-to-die atmosphere because of school -.- ;) Remember this friend of mine I mentioned? With whom I got drunk at this party in winter holidays? The one on whom's lap I sat on? Grmph...I hate to admit it but I miss him,I long for his presence and spend too much time thinking of him imagining things that could be between us...... but I don't trust myself. Firstly, he is way too busy because this year he graduates and ABITUR is a highly stressful thing. Secondly, maybe he is just this very polity and flirty kind of guy that means no hamr and I'm just talking myself into something that is not even there! I really should stop myself from getting a crush on him ,cause in the end it will all go bad- I know it!
Myemye....one moment I have this feelign that it would not really matter a damn if I would siappear tomorrow and everything seems so boring and pointless...then the other moment I am overhwelmed and almsot lost in this whole school/love/life whirl
Ooops, P.E. starts in a few minutes gotta go to read at least some of your blogs!!
Love,
Mina
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Some sayings and quotes I like...
♦Sooner or later everyone will cause you pain…You just have to figure out which ones are worth it.
♦Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad…
♦Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
♦My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil
♦What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear?
♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin
♦Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering.
♦Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
♦I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way..
♦The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does.
♦Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan
♦"When you lose the battle
You may as well give up the war"
.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....
♦Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad…
♦Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
♦My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil
♦What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear?
♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin
♦Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering.
♦Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
♦I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way..
♦The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does.
♦Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan
♦"When you lose the battle
You may as well give up the war"
.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....
When I hate...
When I hate
this stretch of skin
this bulge of thigh
this clinging fat
these beady eyes
When I hate
this stomach flab
this sagging chest
this chunky butt
these too small breasts
When I lose
my sense of self
my dignity
my pride in all
that makes up me
When I lose
this ugly face
this state of mind
my worst disgrace
then I'll be fine.
Then I'll be fine.
You'll see, I'm fine.
~Ant (Morgan S.)~
this stretch of skin
this bulge of thigh
this clinging fat
these beady eyes
When I hate
this stomach flab
this sagging chest
this chunky butt
these too small breasts
When I lose
my sense of self
my dignity
my pride in all
that makes up me
When I lose
this ugly face
this state of mind
my worst disgrace
then I'll be fine.
Then I'll be fine.
You'll see, I'm fine.
~Ant (Morgan S.)~
5 Kommentare:
i know, living and eating at home sucks... i'm facing nearly a month of it in a few days.
my newest plan of attack has been to get my mother on board by telling her how much earthlings affected me and about how i've been looking up veggie recipes. i think if i can get her excited about the food i want to cook (and maybe horrified about the food i dont want around to tempt me!) then half the battle is won...
is it just you in your family who is vegetarian or what? thanks again for the tip on that documentary, i would say nothing has had a greater impact on me and my eating in an incredibly long time. xx
hey you,
Fame, great movie! if you like musicals get the movie 'Hairspray' you'll love it :)
As for that boy, if its meant to be it will happen, but while your waiting focus all your energy on your eating goals;)
Hope your ok,
missed you!
x
oooh, I wish you luck with the party guy! Only time can tell what will happen though <3 Don't force anything, forcing growth just messes it up.
Please tell us how Fame goes, ok? I've heard of it but haven't seen it yet <3
No problem i hope they helped! =) and uggh guys and crushes can be so complex my suggestion is just take all that energy and focus on your eating plan! it what is currently working for me lol!
And fame is sooOOOooo good! i loved it anyway, another good one is 'Mamma Mia!' or at least i love it. Keep up the great work and just let me know if you want help with mia and switching to Ana or getting better. I have done both but now i just usually listen to ANa!
stAy stroNg! thiN(k) thiN!
xoxo Lyndee
Where has my german friend gone?
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