New Lowest Weight

Thaaat's right. =)
Only 200gramms less but still, 52.0 kilos is the lightest I have been in my ED career.
So, how did I manage that? Certainly not by sticking to my glorious plan I announced after that last Saturday-binge-disaster. Nope.
Not.at.all.
So what is my secret?
It is expensive,unhealthy und stupid. Sounds really glamorous,huh?
Right now I am broke,because I spent all my money on b/p food the past week...*yaaay...no*
There have been too many times this week when I thought that I had failed=not purged all of the shit->gain.
But somhow I have not...I'm wondering whether one could see purging as a workout or something? I mean, no one can deny that it is exhausting and takes effort,right? Why ..why shouldn't we burn a fair amount of calories when doing it?  Wouldn't that be nice?
So in a nutshell: Did not stick to the plan but lost weight anway...am wondering what kind of effect being broke will have on the MIA me. I would NEVER EVER start to steal money from my father or someone else.I have been through that in my 12 year old phase....when the woman that dares to call herself my mother had the worst impact on me..anyway...tomorrow is the 31st which means 25€will be given to me as pocket money.
So..does that mean I will continue on Monday with what I have been doing for the past week? That would mean that I will be broke again next Friday,maybe Saturday. And then? Two weeks until I get my pay for my sideline job. If it's 50€ it might last two weeks,huh? Then I get pocket money again and after one week it is time to be broke again for at least one week.

THIS. IS. INSANE.

I can not go on with this pattern for the next few months. Not only because of my health,not only because it would mean that I spent like 75€ per month for food that won'stay on my tummy for longer thant 45minutes.. simply because this is no life. Having no money for anything else,b/p every day once or even twice... I must learn to use my free time for something else than turning into greedy MIA. I have to be able to spend several hours by listening to audio  books,watching TV or ....WHATEVER and not b/p simultaneously.

*SIGH* No, my EDNOS does NOT define and control my whole life *sarcasm*

Monday starts the second term. Meaning  no further school skipping,be attentive and participate in class like hell,be good in exams and tests.. Anyone interested in my final grades? Probably not but I'm gonna post them anyway cause I feel the urge to post a long post after having not said anything the past few days...

German B- English A -French A -Spanish B -Arts B- Politics&Economy A -History B- Ethics A -Maths D -Physics C -Chemistry D -Biology B -Sports c ( shame on me but  I hate volleyball and totally suck at it..)

Quite good I think ..and my father+ his wife love it. And I did not even really try.At least it feels like it. But maybe it is always that way: if you are really good or even excell at something you feel like you did not put that much effort into it..?

What else is new? Am going to be at this friend of mine's house again as I was last Thursday. It is very likely that there will be tons of healthy food again and I will pig out earning strange looks from my two buddies but I don't really care. It is healthy AND free AND today will probably be the only day of this week that is purge free. Wait..maybe tomorrow as well.
I should be learning spanish irregular verbs but I totally don't feel like it...haven't felt like it the whole past week as you can imagine...neither I did do my ethics homework or chemistry... *sigh* I'm just such a fuckin' lazy cow. But I simply don't see the point in most of my homeworks. Apart from the spanish verbs,which are important because I want to learn that language and be able to express myself properly. But all in one I can honestly say that 80% of all my homeworks are just a waste of time. At least I think that it will not help me in life or something.

phhhhh....maybe this lethargy and procastination is just another side effect of my MIA life..

After having said so much and so few at the same time I think I am going to end this post with a small nice realisation:  My memory is like  totally amazing: I have started reading a book called THINK BIG which basically tells you a lot about how your brain/memory works and how you can use it way more effectively. I am now able to memorize 30 or more randomly chosen things on a list within like 2 minutes.
And then write them in perfect order down.
The system is so bloody simple! It is called the Loci-method.

Firstly, you imagine a really familiar place. Like your home or some friend's home or something. And then you start in your thoughts going through your home room by room and placing all the 30+ things on the list in it. But to memorize them make them extraodinary. Like a set of cards: Usually it is small but now you imagine it being  much bigger and glued to the front of your house's door. Or take a zebra. You just do not put it merely in your kitchen,no you make it do a step dance on your oven. And the objects apple tree, Darcula and a pound of butter you could memorize like this: there is a big apple tree growing out of your TV with dracula sitting on it licking happily on that pound of butter =D  
And.so.on.

It is really fun and sooooo easy. You can do the same with placing stuff on your body. Gosh this book is so great would have never thought that memorizingthings is so bloody easy HA

PS.: Thank you Savory,thank you so much for your comment on my last post. Although you probably think it was nothing, it almost made me cry :')