Minor panic attack!

Sonntag, 17. Januar 2010
 Whyyyyy is Insane Jayne's blog not there???!! I just clicked on the blogroll and wnated to read her post with the pics but ...computer says no.
WTF?!?!
*naic attack* has something horrible happened? Discovery,death...I dunno just pleeeease anyone tell me what's happened!!!!

Desperately,
mina


EDIT: uhm,.okayyyyyyyyyyyy? WTF is wrong with the internet/my computer? Right now I just tried to get to Jayne's blog and now all of a sudden it works O.o *breeeeeeath*

PS.: Did not purge today but ate a hell lot of apples...and I am speaking of really a hell lot like maybe 8 or 9 . WHAM. But still,only veggies and potatoes for dinner and even IF I had mroe than 800cals today it was fuckin goddamnit healthy and vegan. And I did not purge. Already said that? No matter, I just wanted to emphasize this little recovery day for my body although I am already feeling the fears of the oncoming week. As Jayne said recently: It is just easy. 
Thus, it is tempting and somehow when I lose control I just SNAP, don't care about anythign but the fact that I want godamn food. Right now. And so I find myself again in my local supermarket. I have started feeling kinda embarrassed because of the cashiers who see me pretty much daily. Every night I come and buy almost the same goddamn MIA stuff....
Ok Mina, you can do it. You can really improve. Think of Jayne.
Just try to be as healthy as you can (Yummy ♥)

Friday's no school so Yay for that.But then again there is school on SATURDAY because it is open day of my school-.- School on weekends should be sin. But maybe just maybe I'll have only 4 lessons instead of 6 because our chemirty teacher alway shows some experiments to the visitor...*fingers crossed*
Additionally, there is a fat chance that I WILL go to a movie night at some friend's on Thursday.Just to keep myself busy,a weak attempt to avoid MIA. Same thing on Saturday night.

We'll see what the week will bring

xxx

PPS.: THIS is my beloved gorgeous David Tennant. He plays the 10th and 11th Doctor in the british series Doctor Who and he is just fuckin awesome(and I mean the whole pack: stunning voice,greeeeeat acor and so handsome *feeling lika a girlie girlie tokyo hotel fan* ♥♥♥

2 Kommentare:

Insane Jayne hat gesagt…

OMG u couldnt find my blog!!!??
disaster!!
lol your the greatest mina, thankyou so much for your comment on my photos, I really appreciate it.. Congrats on no purging today;) stay strong xx

haha you want to know me in real life? well on my list of "things to do before i die" (currently writing, will post this week)- Meet Minaralou face to face, is on the list ;)
Im trying to go all week without binging or purging, only restricting- lets do it together? x

Anonym hat gesagt…

im so proud of you for not binging and purging. :)
good luck with the rest of the week.
xoxo

Some sayings and quotes I like...


"If you're looking for me, I'm hovering around phrensis, more precisely on the thin line between phrenesis and panic, just round the corner of deadly terror and not very far away from despair and idiocy!"
♦Sooner or later everyone will cause you pain…You just have to figure out which ones are worth it.
Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad…
Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil
What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear?
♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin
Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering.
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way..

The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does.
Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan

"When you lose the battle
You may as well give up the war"


.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....

When I hate...

When I hate
this stretch of skin
this bulge of thigh
this clinging fat
these beady eyes

When I hate
this stomach flab
this sagging chest
this chunky butt
these too small breasts

When I lose
my sense of self
my dignity
my pride in all
that makes up me

When I lose
this ugly face
this state of mind
my worst disgrace
then I'll be fine.
Then I'll be fine.
You'll see, I'm fine.
~Ant (Morgan S.)~