My teeth...

Sonntag, 10. Januar 2010
Holy crap, right now I am just so.scared. I am so worried about my teeth because of my hardcore MIA being :(
I am under the impression that my dental enamel is already heavily damaged and I recently spotted a little depression ony one of my upper teeth :S Gosh sweeties  I feel as if I could cry. There is this huge fear to go to my dentist....I have been visiting her since I was a child and telleing her that I'm bulimic ( wow, can't believe I said that!) is just such a big thing! I am scared of her reaction,that the might judge me and be mean or something...I know there is no way she could tell my dad because of this medical secrecy thing but still.... I am so worried about my teeth but don't now what to do... I just think I can't talk about my bulimia to someone like a dentist or jsut anyone else but other ED people like you...
But.... I think I need to do something...soon...otherwise my teeth will be heavily damaged within not time and maybe irreversible... =S
Shit, this should really be THE motivation and reason to minimize my MIA side but I just feel so weak and not strong enough because it is such a tempting thing....eating with no regrets...stuffing your face with all this delicious highcal bad food that seduces my body every single day thx to the chemicals in it *ugh*

Fuck, I am really desperate and scared ...MIA my bittersweet love, how is this relationship between you and me going to end..??


2 Kommentare:

Anonym hat gesagt…

Dnt panic to much! when i was mia i used to tell my dentist i just had bad acid reflux but it seriously can ruin your teeth love. My dentist recommended me some special stuff and now they are way better. but the only way to ever make the destruction of enamel stop is to quit purging.

If you want help switching to ana or just stopping all together! Im totally here for you! ANa is not so bad once you get into it actually its kinda amazing! lol
stAy stroNg! thiN(k) thiN!
xoxo Lyndee

Peridot (G+P) hat gesagt…

Oh Mina! *Hugs*

The saddest thing I've seen was an 18 year old boy at the dentist having al his teeth pulled out and being fitted for false teeth because he didn't brush.

Kick that bitch Mia to the curb. Don't let that whore steal your smile.

Some sayings and quotes I like...


"If you're looking for me, I'm hovering around phrensis, more precisely on the thin line between phrenesis and panic, just round the corner of deadly terror and not very far away from despair and idiocy!"
♦Sooner or later everyone will cause you pain…You just have to figure out which ones are worth it.
Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad…
Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
My knight in shinig armour turned out to be a looser in aluminium foil
What's better? A lie, that drwas a smile (and satisfies) or the truth that draws a tear?
♦(translatet) I am my own hell,my own paradise,a fallen angel, that plunged herself into ruin
Technically, one simply gets unhappy by pondering.
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
I'm not afraid of Happy Endings.I'm just afraid my life won't work that way..

The only reason people hold on memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else does.
Every time a child says"I don't believe in fairies" there's a little fairy somewhere that falls down dead"-Peter Pan

"When you lose the battle
You may as well give up the war"


.... nothing tastes as good as thin feels....sacrifice is giving up something good for something way better.....

When I hate...

When I hate
this stretch of skin
this bulge of thigh
this clinging fat
these beady eyes

When I hate
this stomach flab
this sagging chest
this chunky butt
these too small breasts

When I lose
my sense of self
my dignity
my pride in all
that makes up me

When I lose
this ugly face
this state of mind
my worst disgrace
then I'll be fine.
Then I'll be fine.
You'll see, I'm fine.
~Ant (Morgan S.)~