Okay...this is it

I really really want to be a good EDgirl the oncoming week...I'll start this right now. I have eaten everything I bought tonight in the supermarkedt and tried to purge it.Dunno if I have been successful and will not gain... but who cares...? ME  I admit it. But I really need to concentrate on my MIA problem. Maybe I am just being paranoid but today I examined my teeth cloesly in the mirror and I swear I can already see some cahnges! Like they look thinner,sharper and everything they write about symptoms in articles and stuff :C My plan is that since my supermarket has these lovely pickles back in their offerment I shoudl really make it,huh? I MUST give it a try and try it with all my heart otherwise I will fail again. Yes, I will not have the super flat stomach as I used to have in the past few weeks but hell no I don't want my teeth to turn yellow, heavily damaged and just eww. And I honestly believe that the damages from eating Anaish are less harmful than eatin MIAish every day .... I just need to train my body to geet used to get only like half of an apple in the morning and one for lunch and then nothing until dinner... My stubborn greedy body needs to accept these new circumstances without annoying the hell out of me by making me feel extremely dizzy with super low energy lvls etc etc.... you know the problems

Fuck, I have started bting my nails again :C After I had cut them really short some time ago I nibble constantly on them so they don't have a chance to grow again  meeeeh
MIA makes me ugly and look sick. It is so  very harmful and anything but discrete...it is embarrassing when u eat like a starved animal at party's etc. It is way better to be ANA focused!
I assume it has become kind of an addiction or something.. so the first...what do they always say? 3-5 days will be the hardest and then everything should be fine. So that's one week. one week i have to hold on and give my best and then everything will be easier! Oh gosh I wish I could just  spend a week with one of you ANAs that would help me sooo much I think ;)
 I am sorry that there have been no really worth reading posts of me recently but I hope there will be a significant improvement when I have stopped being such a lame hardcore MIA ;P

To finding florence: Thx for the compliment and plese try to comment again in german I would really like to see your knowledge ;) (german is anything but easy so don't worry haha)

Craving for being a controlled beautiful and mysterious Ana